Staci Howlett Health Coaching

The title of my autobiography would be “I’ll Figure That Out Later”

In college, I was the girl my friends would call any night of the week if they wanted to go out because I was always down. It didn’t matter if I had an exam, my internship, or told my brother I’d drive him to an important training the next day; the morning was literal HOURS away and I would just suffer through it then! (Enter major guilt here when I slept through my alarm and my brother had to ask his dorm Resident Assistant to drive him to training at 6AM.)

This mentality continued into my professional life, when I would regularly roll out of bed feeling less than stellar. “It’s fine,” I always told myself, “I just need to get through the day and then I can treat myself tonight!”

What I didn’t realize at the time was that I was sacrificing my future, not just the next day but sacrificing even having goals for the future, by living purely in the moment. I wasn’t thinking any further into the future than getting through the day, and throwing all cares away every night. I was passively letting life happen to me because I was too tired and sad to do anything else.

There came a point when the sadness and shame took over and I knew I couldn’t just keep doing the same cycle for the rest of my life. I wanted more for myself and for my life. I wanted to wake up motivated and proud of myself instead of with crippling hangxiety.

But I’d always been the wild and crazy girl who emerged from a boozy night out with an embarrassing story to tell. What would happen if I quit drinking? Would I be any fun at all?

Still, I believed it was worth my while to explore what could happen if I changed my relationship with drinking. And that same approach of curiosity and experimentation is what I bring to you.

(BTW, I still live by that ‘figure it out later’ mentality. But this time it’s intentional and goal driven, and allows me to take calculated risks when I believe its going to be worth it!)

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